I love him but i lied cause of it?

okay so like seven months ago this guy and i became like best friends. he helped me through some pretty rough times and i owe him so much but like one night we were texting each other and i lied but i was only joking about not seeing a doctor for an injury and he took it as a lie. he got so heated and mad at me iw almost stopped being friends. ever since then we've gotton over things but then i became severely depressed, i saw a psychologist three times, and that's it. I told him i talked to my cousin and he really is a psychologist but i didn't text him so that s one lie. then kept telling him that i went to a psychologist periodically, but i didn't i went about three times but i got better on my own. now that this has all blown over i feel so guilty about lying to him i just wanna cry, should i tell him? ot should i just keep it bottled up? last time it wasn't even a lie and he got so mad. not only that but i just wanted to make him happy, i love him, i dont know how or why but i just do. i want to be with him forever but if im gunna tell him i like him then i cant hav these lies floating around...please help me ...should i open up and just tell him but if i do, than i might never be friends let alone his girlfriend ever again ): im lost...