How to tell my stepdad i screwed up bad? or if i should? i dont want to mess this up. please help?

Honey, as a mom, I just wanna give a a big ol hug! We all mess up. I am pretty sure before your stepdad was a cop, he made some dumb decisions too! Don't think of yourself as a loser or a screwup. You just messed up thats all. I always tell my kids its ok to make a mistake, but once you keep making the same mistake over and over, its not a mistake anymore.....its a habit. Habits are very hard to break. First you need to sit your stepdad down and tell him what you have been doing. He will get mad, thats a given, but I don't think it will change the way he feels about you. Tell him you need his help and that you want to change, no matter what it takes. Second, the friends....you need to lose them. Friends that encourage you to do things that are wrong are not friends. There are what I like to call "Misery Mates"! They do things and know that its wrong, but if they have someone with them, if feels better. Misery love company! Thats basically all they are. True friends are not going to encourage you to even think about being around cocaine or do things that is wrong, especially with a cop for a stepdad! The last thing you need to do is forgive yourself....even if your stepdad doesn't, you have to forgive yourself and started working toward changing. You now have to gain his trust back and if you really want to correct your mistakes, you will have to do what is neccessary to make it right. Good luck, sweetie!