Shouldnt i remember this?

About two months ago Iw as raped, I knew the guy. I went and pressed charges but theres no say back on whats going to happen, theres no evidence so they said it was a "he said, she said" kinda case. well i got really depressed and upset about it, my anxiety was through the roof...and i could deal with it. I lived in fear and felt powerless. i went to the doctor and he put me on cymbalta, lamitcal, clozepam (generic of kelonipin), and seroquil...it work, it works really well but now im not upset, i dont think about it...and it doesnt haunt me like it once did. but if this goes to trial, wont i have to? I do remember what happened, but not in the emotional intensity that i once did.